how i miss him as much as the sun misses the star (????) 

ive been trying to hide this feeling, to contain it as much as i can, i dont want anybody to know how i feel i dont want them to see like im so clingy to my boyf etc

but truth is i do miss him

and this feeling come out eventually no matter how hard i tried to keep it to myself

i miss you

today i have an appointment at 12 but i feel sleepy at a quarter to 12. So i let myself to sleep.

I woke up by the sound of the doors being opened and I look at the clock, only 5 minutes gone by.

and during those 5 minutes i dream about you.

i dream about you telling me how much you love me how much you miss me

and i dream about me crying.
you wore your green jacket that you got from me and i was laying in bed and you were sitting beside the bed.

and im gonna write this down before i forget about my dream. you said, ' im sorry if this is becoming too hard for you to handle. Im sorry if I become trouble again for you. And Im sorry that even your face is blur in my head im sorry i almost forget you. I love you please hold on to me, to us.' yeah the language is english.

and then you held my hands and im crying even harder with some 'its okay' between my sobs.

then I woke up and my eyes are wet.

i miss you.